I am confident when I go shopping solo, or when I take a jog around the lake alone. I pertty much feel secure in my self when I go grocery shopping or have my oil changed or drop something off at the post office or lay by the pool in the summer–all solo, most of the time. Being single isn’t too difficult when it comes to these tasks. At least for me. I enjoy the errand-running and simple tasks that I must do. I soak in the freedom. I love it.
Sometimes–and let me emphasize that this isn’t always the case–I feel most insecure about my solo-ness, my singleness, my incompleteness (as some may say, if you reference some people who say that marraige allows two people to come together and be complete with God)– I feel most insecure about being single when I am with other people. The size of the group doesn’t matter. I can be with two people who are married–to one another or to other people–or I can be in a large group of people where the focus is on family. It’s obvious that this insecurity is most often felt when in a group of paired-off people, although I have met some people, lately, who are exceptionally good at not making me so aware that I’m single and they’re not. (Thank you, Jesus!)
At times, I let my guard down and allow this insecurity to manifest itself into a paranoia where I feel that I am an inconvenience. (That word kind of looks like incomplete.)
It’s insane; I know. I’m paranoid. I’ve already admitted that.
I wonder if anyone has ever felt they were an inconvenience because they are single.
I wonder if anyone has thought a single person to be an inconvenience.
I don’t feel the need to defend the convenient nature of a single person. We all know that they’re flexible, independent, and able to give of their time (and sometimes money). If you need to get out of the house on a Tuesday night, there is probably a single somewhere who might join you if they’re not already in their comfy pjs chillin’ at their place. We are great. Yet, sometimes, I am paranoid and feel the need to declare myself a Single Inconvenience.