So, yeah.  I don’t have a rough life.  I know this.  But my emotions can get the best of me.

More so recently.

At times like this, I can’t help but be swept into a wondering mode.  I wonder if I’m doing something wrong, if I’m messed up, if something’s wrong with me… if I’ll ever get across this rushing river of doubt. 

Most of my life is pretty good, I have to say.  Not that I deserve all of God’s Goodness that He has so generously bestowed upon me.  I have a job that, despite recent events, is dependable.  I have a car that is dependable, too.  And, while finances are tight, I’m working on plans that should lead to financial freedom, one day.  There are a few people in my life who really pour into me in ways that they don’t understand; heck, I don’t understand it, sometimes.  I’m slowly but surely getting settled into a new Christian community that I really enjoy and love and am finding delightful surprises every step of the way. 

But, in the midst of all of this, I find myself wondering if I’m ever going to achieve certain goals in my life that I want to achieve.  Financially.  Romantically.  Spiritually.  Am I on the right path?  I ask myself this often.  It’s a healthy thing to ask, I suppose.  I’m just wondering, though.  While asking these questions of my Saviour, I am not wandering off.  I don’t take another path.  I stay on the one I’m taking until He says otherwise. 

And another random entry comes to a close.