I couldn’t wait to get home to blog this. I can’t believe it. Never would I ever have thought this would actually happen. I was speeding the last leg of my drive home; I took my seat belt off before the last curve before my house. The garage door couldn’t open quickly enough for me. I had to carry up some things from my car and dropped them on the floor upon reaching the top of my steps. I turned not one light on. I just had to write the following while it was still fresh in my heart, overflowing, in fact!:
How can God take a pain with such unmeasurable depth and turn it to love? How can a heart that hurt so much now love even more than it hurt before? Never have I ever experienced this before. I don’t understand it. The pain. Now love. Love that I don’t understand. Love that won’t let me stop whispering prayers endlessly for those who have carelessly and shamelessly betrayed me and hurt me and spun my life around, upside down, emptied it, broken it, casted it aside. This love causes me to grab at my heart in hopes of holding something that I feel so surely and without a doubt. Who is this God that can do something like this within someone as unimportant and lowly as me? Who am I that He thinks me worthy to be transformed in this way? How could I have ever kept going the way I was?
My God, Your Goodness is surely unmatched! Nothing even comes close to Your Wonderous Works!
I am so unworthy of Your love, God. Thank You for Your unending Love and Grace and Forgiveness.
In Your Name I continually pray…