Hm. Maybe I’m not as optimistic as I thought I was. I keep saying, “I hope” to people who encourage me about things in my life. Tonight, as I left the last FPU class of the season, a classmate was encouraging me concerning the debt I will begin paying off after I graduate (this Saturday!!). They were saying that, after the class we’d just finished, I should have the tools to get out of debt quickly and such. And it’s true. I have the tools and the knowledge to rock out the financial aspect of my life. But, instead of replying confidently and optimistically, I said, “I hope.”
That’s not me at all. I’m optimistic. Right? …when did all of this “hope” crap come around? I do hope. I do. Hope isn’t bad. I just need to find a better way to express what I really think. I really think that it will happen. It can. It will. I’m going to try.
Am I a pessimistic person who is masquerading as an optimist? the other way around, perhaps?