I know that I know what He did for me is real. I know.
Tomorrow, though, I am stepping back into my past, in a way. I have tentative plans to meet up with some old pals from back before the pain (which is now love) began.
Over the past few weeks, I’ve experienced love and freedom and joy. All of this without actually talking to people who were major players in that part of my life.
Tomorrow, that will change. This makes me nervous. At least a little bit.
Why the heck am I nervous? God has never transformed me more than He did a few weeks ago.
But tomorrow, I have to face someone … and recreate with that someone … who just weeks ago I hated. I think I must’ve had a habitual negative reaction to the idea of her being there. I think that’s what makes me nervous. What if– what if I can’t love her to her face? Will I be able to handle the possible judgment that may be passed upon me by this person?
God, I need Your reassurance if I’m actually going to go, tomorrow. Grant me strength. Ease my anxieties. I know I said that I was ready to move on–to continue–without running away. So help me to do that. Help me to continue without running away from the victories You have for me. In Your name I continually pray…