It’s a weird experience: being engaged. 

At first, there’s just complete excitement and disbelief that marriage is even going to happen.  Then, plans start and, even though some plans are “set in stone,” there is still this feeling that wedding plans are just ideas.  Then fiance and fiancee get to spend more time together and realize just how much they want to be married.  Then, as plans start to seem more real, the anticipation builds.  They just can’t believe how much they look forward to spending their lives together.  They fall asleep to the scent of their beloved on a shirt they stole and relish in the thought of snuggling with said loved one until falling asleep.  They dread the thought of coming back home to no greeting from the one they love.  They are disappointed to fall asleep without snuggle time and would absolutely love to talk to one another face-to-face while holding hands and standing close.  The level of anticipation grows and changes. 

That has been my experience, so far, at least.

And I, of course, feel the need to relate this to our Christian walk–our engagement with God.

When I first asked Jesus to let me follow Him, I was excited and couldn’t believe how awesome it felt to love Him.  Then, I started making plans to share Christ with other people–and I never thought I’d ever be successful at helping others.  Then, I began to spend more and more time with Christ.  In prayer and in His word.  I desired to be with Him, to spend time with Him, and to learn about Him.  I began to desire to see His face.  I’d fall asleep with His words in my heart.  Then, I began to realize that life without Him wasn’t worth living and would become disappointed if I couldn’t talk to Him or cry at His feet or feel close to Him.  The level of love for my God grows and changes. 

And I want to be with Him forever.