Every morning, my Timehop app tells me beautiful, strange, and silly tales of my goings-on from years past. This morning, a text conversation was in my Timehop from a friend.
This friend had previously been my best friend. I probably would have died for her. A beauty, I became invisible to the males around but I didn’t mind because I loved her.
A few things happened. We came to different places in our lives. She began dating a guy, giving him all of her attention and time. I felt totally neglected and addressed the issue to no avail.
With great pain, I tried to hold myself together and continued living life. I prayed about the pain, the friend, the situation. I watched as her life got crazier, then less crazy. We both settled down with our husbands in different states and drifted farther apart. Nothing seemed to be resolved.
I think that, as females, we may, at times, wonder why we pour ourselves out for others when so few people return the favor. At least it can feel that way. Deep pain can come from feeling this neglect and disappointment.
And then great pain can come from not knowing how to mend the pain we cause. Because none of us are innocent. Not one.
And a year ago, this dear friend texted me. After about 4 years of silence between the two of us, we caught up a bit. Our words were superficial at first; I was happy to learn her husband and my husband share a deep affinity for coffee and that everyone was healthy. It was simple and sweet, but I was hesitant. Then she sent words that brought healing tears to my eyes.
She sent words with a clear heart of regret, sorrow–and a desire to mend bridges, heal hearts, and put our friendship back together. Whether she knew it or not, this part of my heart had not healed all those years. The beauty of texting is that I could play it cool while sobbing and celebrating and thanking Jesus and experiencing great amazement. And relief.
I often feel blessed that I have never experienced a heart-wrenching break up like so many girls experience. The Hunk and I have very little romantic relationship baggage compared to so many of the hurting couples who marry. But, in my experience, relationship pain had come from friends, not boys.
This friend’s words began in me a possibility to move forward, even if just cautiously.
So, this morning, I celebrate. I celebrate friendship as I try to be a better friend. I celebrate repentance as Jesus forgives all my failure. I celebrate healing–often the result of friendship and repentance.
And, this morning, I search inside my heart for the courage to be the friend I want to be, the strength to scoot outside this painful comfort zone, and the wisdom to be a good friend to others.
Psalm 31.24: Be strong, and let your heart take courage, all you who wait for the Lord!
Sometimes, we let ourselves feel more than other times.
Sometimes, we let that vulnerability blast out of our hearts and eyeballs so fiercely that a thousand swallows can’t keep it down.
Other times, we spend a lot of energy trying to control our very own emotions and resisting sensitivity and selflessness.
But when we finally break. And when we admit that it’s okay not to think everything is peachy. And we let it happen.
Not a rush like a roller coaster. Not a rush like falling in love. A rush like loving the falling.
Loving the allowing.
Lord, I ache for my friends who are in pain right now. People who have crossed my path by Your great and wonderful will. I am honored to have known them and loved them.
Be with them. Hold them. Be You to them.
Speak to my heart, that I might serve them and love them by Your grace.
Thank you for perspective. For healing. For tenderness. Thank for hearing and answering my prayers.
Thank you for being real in my heart and for never leaving me.
Hey, Newlywed! Oh. My. Goodness. You’re married! If you are like me, you felt like this would never happen. But it did!
First things first: I’m writing to you from the perspective of a woman–but feel free to read this if you’re a man.
photo by Bethany Moore, Breakthrough Images
I’m writing with the idea that you just married the man of your prayers with whom you did not cohabitate before you tied that special knot. I have no other experience but this, so I don’t have expertise in newlywededness that doesn’t fit this category.
I’m writing from the perspective of being married for just over four years. Our wedding day was am amazing day and I treasure the memories from the day.
I guess this post sort of means that maybe, just maybe, I’m not a newlywed anymore. When did this happen? When did I become not newlywed anymore? That’s kind of like asking when your puppy grew up. It just happened. Every day. And then it just was. Non-newlywedness sneaked in and became a thing without your permission.
For the record, I don’t think I am an oldlywed. I just have a little under my belt, now. I’ll claim newlywededness with or without your permission. Thankyouverymuch.
So, let’s talk a bit about being a newlywed, shall we?
My first piece of advice is to get rid of a word. The d-word. Divorce should NOT be an option. You promised to be committed to this guy and this relationship whether things are going splendidly or terribly. Leaving is not an option. A break from this commitment cannot–CANNOT–be an option for either of you.
If you didn’t decide, going into this adventure, that divorce shouldn’t be an option, decide now. It’s not too late. If divorce is an option, one or both of you will jump ship and you both will fail at being married.
Honeymoon pic on a beach in Greece
So, if you just got home from your honeymoon, you should expect to get to work. Maybe you’ve heard people say that marriage takes “work.” You’re probably thinking about all of the work you did as an engaged couple–planning a wedding–or when you were dating–as you got to know each other or went through all that junk.
That previous work definitely counts. Prepare for things to change, though.
I remember–just a month or so after I moved and The Hunk and I began to live together in marriage–turning to Seth and crying a little bit. I felt like I was grasping to hold tight to the giddy honeymoon excitement that I’d experienced. I remember saying to my sparkling new husband, “I feel like our love is already changing!” He felt it, too.
And it did. The change wasn’t a bad change, but it was unexpected. I imagine the change is different for every couple, since people are always different and one couple is never identical to another. And I imagine you can expect this change to happen–although I can’t promise it will occur as quickly as ours did, as I moved from a long distance and experienced more changes in my life than I could ever have imagined.
This love change was a sign that our love was deepening and strengthening. Our roots were digging into the soil. We were just starting to do life together and this was a necessary and natural change.
I hope you’ve also heard that money is usually the cause of the d-word-we’re-no-longer-using. Well, that’s only half true. Terrible teamwork during money crisis can be the beginning of the end if a husband and wife do not work together to solve the problem. Work together to be proactive about your spending. There will likely be a spending surge after you say “I do,” as you settle into life together. Set up your budget–and while you’re at it, be sure to follow Dave Ramsey’s model for telling your money where it goes so that your money doesn’t tell you where you can’t go. As he says, live like no one else now so you can live like no one else later!
If you didn’t get premarital counseling (we did), get newlywed counseling. Before there’s a problem, be sure you have the tools to fix inevitable pot holes that appear along the way in your marriage. I help The Hunk when he provides pre-marital counseling; we tend to spend a lot of time helping equip these lovebirds with skills to work through their problems. I am unbelievably honored to be a part of this process because, as we grow up, we often don’t learn these methods. I know I didn’t. But, seriously, it’s not too late to get these tools and you’ll thank yourself later. Pot holes are inevitable.
Okay. I know this is hard to believe. Well, probably hard to believe. But you’re probably not going to feel like loving this splendid guy sometime. At least once. At least a thousand times. I mean, unless he’s actually Jesus the Christ, he’s imperfect. I have a few of my own favorite lines that I try to keep at the front of my mind when The Hunk moves my cheese or leaves coffee grinds all over the counter.
- You’re on the same team. I hope Seth knows that I’m not out to get him. So, in return, I have to–just have to–remember that he doesn’t ever mean to come against me or hurt me. If we disagree about how to go about taking care of the car I totaled on the way to work, we both have to problem-solve with this idea at the center of our process. My husband has a similar line that he uses: Fight together–not against one another. He fights with me–not against me. Because we’re on the same team.
- Outdo one another in love. Love isn’t a competition, of course, but I keep this in mind when I realize that I’m keeping track or adding up “points” in my head. It doesn’t matter if Seth has done less than me when it comes to making dinner or cleaning up afterwards. Always. Always. Always, I am aiming to love him more than he loves me. And goshdangit if he isn’t awesome at loving me!?
- It’s not personal. When Seth comes home and is super quiet while I go off about an awful day at work or a super important-to-me issue, I can sometimes feel ignored. And my job is basically to be ignored all day, so I can get pretty peeved if my man isn’t joining me in a pretend tirade against Johnny Cuss-me-out or Sally Alpha-female. But, if I remember this line, I realize that I need to stop my self-absorbed rant and see what’s going on with him. Without fail, I realize that I’ve literally just dumped my problems on him; his job is basically to be dumped on all day. So, it’s not personal.
- Give the same grace you would like. This is actually one I stole from Seth. When I think about the amount of grace Jesus gives me daily and, well, hourly and … second-ly, I realize that I am really no one to stand on a high horse and expect perfection in any area of life since I cannot ever get life perfect. This is one reason Jesus created marriage–for us to realize the extent to which we are forgiven and to practice that same difficult forgiveness allthegoshdarntime. Seriously.
- Love each other, even if you don’t feel like it. This adage is my mother-in-law’s. Other than experience, I don’t know where she heard it. But I didn’t understand it for a while. And, if you’re fresh off the reception dance floor, you may not get this for a while. But just get real tired and see how much energy you feel like expending on this worky worky love. You won’t feel like running that errand he requests or responding to his obvious and suggestive touch. You just won’t. And every tired tissue of your body will encourage you to close your eyes and heart off from your man. When you do this, it’s the same as him plugging in headphones and blasting music in his ears after you ask for help carrying in the groceries or when you need to be heard.
Alright, you newlywed, you. I love talking about marriage and could continue for a long freakin’ time. So, I’ll leave you with a list of awesome resources that I’m pretty sure have saved me a bunch of grey hairs and prevented all possible ulcers.
- By far, the most valued resource from which I’ve gleaned so far is Love and Respect. This book breaks down the foundational relationship issues between men and women and helped me understand what respect REALLY means to me–not the chauvinistic definition I thought was truth before. Check out their sister ministry Love and Respect NOW. Joy seriously cracks me up. I want to be her bff.
- Seth and I use the book and accompanying workbooks for Saving Your Marriage Before it Starts. If you go through the workbooks and read the book, you are forced to talk about the difficult things–before they startle you when they pop up suddenly and without warning. We went through these on our own before we got married–well, we didn’t quite finish before we got married.
There are tons of resources out there, but none of these resources are any good if you don’t know Jesus as your personal savior. I can’t help but be frank when I say this. Without Jesus, marriages fall apart since marriage is supposed to represent Jesus’ love for the Church: unconditional and eternal.
So, please, enjoy marriage. Always try to get better at being married–loving your husband and working with him to serve Jesus. It really can be splendid despite the hard times–like when your boss unfairly and unrelentingly reams you out or you have your very first real car wreck or when money just doesn’t seem to be stretching or when your wisdom teeth have to be cut out or when you need someone to help you grade papers or shoot a wedding. In short, it’s a roller coaster, for sure.
I absolutely love social media. While I’m looking forward to going off the grid a bit later this week, I love seeing my friends’ pictures on Instagram and finding information on Twitter and staying caught up in my peeps’ lives on Facebook. And, oh, do I love reading blogs and learning how to do things by watching videos on YouTube.
As I write this post, in fact, I’m watching an online class about how to use Instagram to market small businesses!
Yes, it’s safe to say that I love social media.
This morning, I found out that my husband’s cousin was crowned Miss USA last night. (Way to go, Nia!) And, since I’ve never met her, I wanted to learn more about her.
Where did I go to learn about her?
Of course: Social Media.
This got me thinking: Our social media says a lot about who we are. If you want to know who I am, check out who I follow on Twitter. Check out what pages I like on Facebook. Look at my Instagram images and see who I follow on Instagram. Read my blog to see what I think about life. Read my posts on Twitter, Instagram and Facebook.
What do you hope I’d find if I decided to look at your social media presence to learn about you? What, in actuality, would be my impression of you?
My big question for me is this: Would God be glorified by my social media presence?
Here’s what I’d hope you’d think of me:
- She likes people.
- She’s always learning about photography.
- She is pure.
- She has fun in a way that God would not be ashamed.
- She loves her husband!
- She’s conservative in dress and behavior.
- She eats delicious food–but is not a health freak.
- She’s not complex, but has deep thoughts.
Every once in a while, I go through my social media to cleanse. I feel a cleanse coming on.
What do you hope others think about you when they look at your social media presence? Why is it important for us to care about this?
Today is day 28, the last day, of the #iheartBible challenge that I’m hosting. If you have joined up, hooray! I’m glad you’re here. If not, you missed out. Maybe we’ll have another challenge later in the year? Interested? Drop me a line! I love Jesus and blogging, so I’m glad to see people joining in.
Today’s verse is Joshua 1.8. Read it below in its context (Why do I care about context?):
1 After the death of Moses the servant of the Lord, the Lord said to Joshua the son of Nun, Moses’ assistant, 2 “Moses my servant is dead. Now therefore arise, go over this Jordan, you and all this people, into the land that I am giving to them, to the people of Israel. … 7 Only be strong and very courageous, being careful to do according to all the law that Moses my servant commanded you. Do not turn from it to the right hand or to the left, that you may have good success wherever you go. 8 This Book of the Law shall not depart from your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do according to all that is written in it. For then you will make your way prosperous, and then you will have good success. 9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go.”
Today’s verse is bookended by commands to be strong and courageous. The verse itself commands Joshua to focus on the Book of the Law–to, in fact, think of it twenty-four seven.
Think about how difficult that would be–to think about the laws of Moses day and night–all the time. I mean, I don’t think it’s any easier for professional ministers. Constantly thinking about God’s word seems impossible; other demands call our attention: children, work, spouses, cleaning the danged house.
What would constant meditation on the Word even look like?
Would it be boring?
Would it be frustrating?
Would anyone, like, even want to be my friend if I only thought about the Word?
But God said that this would help Joshua to be careful to follow God’s law.
That’s a nice perk. Maybe this doesn’t always make a person have immediate friends, but one would certainly be viewed as reliable and steady to others.
On top of that perk, God issues Joshua a promise, which I believe would apply to all of us. He promises Joshua that he will be a successful and prosperous journey.
Gosh, what a promise!
But I also worry that modern people forget what exactly this type of promise means: What is success? What is prosperity? We have our own definitions. How does God define success? prosperity?
This makes me think about my own wavering expectations. We all have these. Sometimes, our goal is to simply get out of bed, shower, and get back into pajamas for the rest of the day. Other days, we expect to complete all of the grocery shopping, clean the entire house, finish the whole laundry process, and post an interesting and creative blog post. What a difference that is!
So, this brings me to my final question for this challenge: What does God have in mind for your success?
Today is day 27 of the #iheartBible challenge that I’m hosting. If you have joined up, hooray! I’m glad you’re here. If you want to join up, then awesomesauce! Check out the challenge post for details and join in on the linky so we can all read one another’s posts during the challenge. I love Jesus and blogging, so I’m glad to see people joining in. We’d love to have you join, too. It’s never too late, even though tomorrow is the last day!
Today’s verse is Psalm 133.1. Read it below in its context (Why do I care about context?):
1 Behold, how good and pleasant it is
when brothers dwell in unity!
2 It is like the precious oil on the head,
running down on the beard,
on the beard of Aaron,
running down on the collar of his robes!
3 It is like the dew of Hermon,
which falls on the mountains of Zion!
For there the Lord has commanded the blessing,
This verse has a very strange immediate context. Oil running don on the beard of Aaron? That sounds pretty gross to me.
Oh, but, you know, there’s more. Two points to make here.
Firstly, the oil poured on Aaron was anointing oil used to anoint Aaron as a high priest of God. There was so much oil poured over him–not a little dab or tiny drop–that it soaked him to the fringes of his beard and the hem of his garment. In short, the oil enveloped him.
Secondly, this psalm is one that the people of God would sing as they pilgrimaged up the mountain to Jerusalem to worship the lord. The oil represents the Holy Spirit; true unity can only occur when we are enveloped by the Holy Spirit.
I’m glad, because that oil thing in the beard seemed pretty gross to me.
Have you ever experienced unity in the Holy Spirit? How would you describe it?